As I was putting Chloe to bed last night she started to get a little upset. I asked what was wrong and she said “I just really miss Felix.” I told her that I did too and that it was okay to be sad. And it’s okay to cry. She asked again if we would all see Felix in Heaven someday and I said yes. Then she asked if we would all die at the same time. I told her probably not but that we never know when it will happen – just like with Felix. She then asked “But you told me that day you were wearing the red shirt and a ponytail. How did you know?” That blew me away. I could not believe (even though it’s only been 2 months – a long time for a preschooler) that she remembered what I looked like when we told her that her brother had died. Then she asked if he was in the white box we sat next to on the green carpet (describing his funeral). She seemed so disconnected from what was happening that day that I didn’t think she would remember it. She continues to amaze me. We talked about her questions and I told her that anytime she wanted to talk, her Daddy and I would be there.

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