i can feel it in the depths.
i am trying to keep it down.
i am trying to keep it in.
the nightmare returns this time each year.
the storm is brewing.
i will try to be strong enough to keep the waves at bay
until the time i can be alone and let them crash freely.
with you, my sweet babe, the pain and sadness are all i have to remember you by.
i’m sorry it wasn’t as well planned with you.
i’m sorry i didn’t know what to do.
i’m sorry no one saw me hold you, saw me love you.
i do love you.
i do miss you
so much it tears me apart.