I got the call from my OB this afternoon.  The people at St. Vincent will not budge on the H1N1 visitor restriction.  She tried and tried but no such luck.  This means that some panel has decided that my children will not be allowed to meet their baby brother.  I am more than upset.  I can’t really find a word appropriate enough to describe it.

I plan to address this on Monday morning when we arrive.  If they really are about “the spirit of caring” they should care about this.  We have included the kids in this journey with us and I do not intend to let some random hospital committee tell us that they will not get to be there for the end.  I want one of these committee members to come and look us in the eye and tell us themselves.  I want to know if any of them has been through a loss like this – twice.  I don’t think they fully understand what they are telling us and other families on the verge of loss.  It is making this situation even worse and adding to the emotional baggage that I will have to tote and sort through for years to come.  And making it harder for the kids, too.  (By they way, Clarian has decided to make exceptions for patients who they know are dying.)

Please pray that these people will have a change of heart before Monday so that I don’t even have to bring it up.