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Comment on here and now by Michele

Michele — Thu, 11 Mar 2010 16:15:30 +0000

It’s not crazy. At all. I wonder if, as they watch us mourn for their older brothers and sisters, if Bobby and Maya will feel that way, or worse, that they were an “after thought” of some sort. I thank God every single day for all my children and, if my grief is the path I had/have to walk, for my full family, then I accept that, even in the pain. But it does make me think about the things you’ve wrote… A lot…

Comment on here and now by Erika

Erika — Thu, 11 Mar 2010 13:13:38 +0000

Wow…to quote a dear friend, “This post was like reading my mind.” I have thought and felt these same things with my kids. I wonder if they will grow up with the feeling that they aren’t enough, that they’re just “replacements” for the child I lost, even though they don’t even understand yet that they lost a sibling. I certainly don’t feel that way about them at all, but I worry that they will somehow pick up on my longing for a complete family here on earth, and that they’ll somehow feel like they’re responsible for that. Wish I had some great wisdom for you, but all I can say is that you’re certainly not alone. And you’re right about the challenge of balancing the love with the fear. It’s quite a feat.

Comment on tomorrow by Melissa Kludt

Melissa Kludt — Sun, 21 Feb 2010 11:59:20 +0000

I will continue with you on this road, sending more thoughts and prayers for you.

Melissa

Comment on tomorrow by Sarah

Sarah — Wed, 17 Feb 2010 03:36:02 +0000

I can’t imagine, but I’m here for the tomorrows with you xxx

Comment on today by bippy

bippy — Wed, 17 Feb 2010 01:53:52 +0000

I still talk about Susie and my memories of her and of course Michael…along with Gabe and Felix there are a big part of our lives…they lived..all of them..just not as long as we wanted. For the longest time I worried about Susie being up in heaven alone..even though Grandpa Eppert was there and of course Bruce..but as a child I worried. So maybe Chloe, Dylan and Ezra won’t worry like we did because Gabe and Felix have so many with them and of course they have each other…just not where we want them…love you. Bippy

Comment on today by Michele

Michele — Tue, 16 Feb 2010 02:25:16 +0000

I’m happy for you.

Comment on yesterday by bippy

bippy — Thu, 11 Feb 2010 17:13:23 +0000

oh Amanda…my heart aches for all of you…this thing called life is a lot of times too much to bear…we have lost so much through the years…the only thing that makes me smile is that Mimi is taking care of all of them for us till we get there…love you.

Comment on yesterday by Erika

Erika — Thu, 11 Feb 2010 12:42:27 +0000

I almost sent you a message last night asking whether you, too, feel sad for the children who aren’t with you on the birthdays of your children who are here. I guess this answers my question! You said it better than I ever could. I know that feeling of being incomplete, never getting to celebrate a single birthday or holiday with the WHOLE family…at least not here on Earth. The happiest occasions are also the saddest occasions. Hard to make sense of that.

I love you, my friend!

Comment on yesterday by Michele

Michele — Thu, 11 Feb 2010 05:42:20 +0000

My heart aches too. For you guys, for us… For all of us.

Comment on yesterday by Mrs. Spit

Mrs. Spit — Thu, 11 Feb 2010 04:32:55 +0000

Yes. Sometimes I so yearn for heaven.