A year ago today my life changed forever.

Again.

It’s been a rough day. I remember the appointments. I remember the news. I remember the statistics. I remember the recommendations. I remember the phone calls. I remember the hurt and betrayal I felt.

I read through the post I wrote before we went for Gabriel’s first ultrasound. It made me remember some other things.

I am loved.

I am strong.

And I was able to love again with my whole heart.

In fact, I fell head over heels in love with my baby G.

Even though it is not in place yet due to the soggy conditions around here – I decided to go ahead and post a picture of our sons’ headstone.

We had the artwork done by a graphic designer Brian met through his consulting.  She did an amazing job creating the image from our description.  The words surrounding it are from the song “After the Last Tear Falls” by Andrew Peterson.