http://amandagroce.com/2010/03/here-and-now/ Before I even speak a word, you know what I will say (psalm 139:4) Thu, 08 Dec 2011 02:23:47 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 http://amandagroce.com/2010/03/here-and-now/comment-page-1/#comment-385 Michele Thu, 11 Mar 2010 16:15:30 +0000 http://amandagroce.com/?p=402#comment-385 It's not crazy. At all. I wonder if, as they watch us mourn for their older brothers and sisters, if Bobby and Maya will feel that way, or worse, that they were an "after thought" of some sort. I thank God every single day for all my children and, if my grief is the path I had/have to walk, for my full family, then I accept that, even in the pain. But it does make me think about the things you've wrote... A lot... It’s not crazy. At all. I wonder if, as they watch us mourn for their older brothers and sisters, if Bobby and Maya will feel that way, or worse, that they were an “after thought” of some sort. I thank God every single day for all my children and, if my grief is the path I had/have to walk, for my full family, then I accept that, even in the pain. But it does make me think about the things you’ve wrote… A lot…

]]> http://amandagroce.com/2010/03/here-and-now/comment-page-1/#comment-384 Erika Thu, 11 Mar 2010 13:13:38 +0000 http://amandagroce.com/?p=402#comment-384 Wow...to quote a dear friend, "This post was like reading my mind." I have thought and felt these same things with my kids. I wonder if they will grow up with the feeling that they aren't enough, that they're just "replacements" for the child I lost, even though they don't even understand yet that they lost a sibling. I certainly don't feel that way about them at all, but I worry that they will somehow pick up on my longing for a complete family here on earth, and that they'll somehow feel like they're responsible for that. Wish I had some great wisdom for you, but all I can say is that you're certainly not alone. And you're right about the challenge of balancing the love with the fear. It's quite a feat. Wow…to quote a dear friend, “This post was like reading my mind.” I have thought and felt these same things with my kids. I wonder if they will grow up with the feeling that they aren’t enough, that they’re just “replacements” for the child I lost, even though they don’t even understand yet that they lost a sibling. I certainly don’t feel that way about them at all, but I worry that they will somehow pick up on my longing for a complete family here on earth, and that they’ll somehow feel like they’re responsible for that. Wish I had some great wisdom for you, but all I can say is that you’re certainly not alone. And you’re right about the challenge of balancing the love with the fear. It’s quite a feat.

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