I have been sitting in front of my computer for over an hour trying to get motivated to buy Christmas presents. It’s not working.

The last couple of days have been hard. I am watching my friend struggle through the most unthinkable nightmare. I was able to spend a few hours with her last night and that was good. I know I already said this, but I really hope that I can be of some comfort and help to her.

One thing that has surprised me is how emotional I’ve been and how my sleep has been interrupted. It’s more than just worrying about my friend… it’s stirring up some of the thoughts and feelings from those first few days after Felix died. Not that those are hard to find; actually, the tears still come quite easily. It’s just that, even though our losses are different they are still the same. We are mothers who lost a son. Both were sudden and unexpected and shocking. Both left us wondering how we’ll make it through this. (more…)